June 13, 2008

Chloe Newman

If you're from Southern Indiana around New Albany, chances are you've heard of Chloe Newman. If your memory needs a jog, she's the 6 year old from Silver St. Elementary who had been battling Leukemia. Chloe stopped fighting this horrible disease early Thursday morning.

I didn't know this family, so everything I've seen has been from the outside, but I tell you what, she brought a big darn part of this community together. A few weeks ago, the school, church and neighborhood association where she lives put on a fundraiser and with the help of the community raised over $10,000 for this family! That right there is enough to make me proud of New Albany.

While I am of course grieving for this family and their loss, it has done a good job in strengthening my gratitude once again, if not shaming me for my actions and behavior. My children are amazing and (Praise God!) healthy, I have a wonderful husband, who's been working and helping other people in a time of need. I have an amazing family, consisting of my natural family and my in-laws who care about me very much. I have a wonderful church and church family, who, even though we don't see eye-to-eye on stuff, reach out to me and others to show their love on regular basis. I have friends who care for me and who's relationship I cherish, and have taught me many things about becoming a better person and friend.

I'll be stopping by the visitation to show my support for this family, I'll be saying a prayer that God touches his hand upon this family and eases their pain, and for Chloe to surround them with her love. If you're so inclined and able I implore you to do the same.

Following service tomorrow, dinner will be served at Silver St. United Methodist Church, 413 Silver St., New Albany, IN (at the corner of Silver St., and Elm St., off of Spring St.) Someone will be at the church after 10am to except any food donations.

Visitation for our Chloe ~ 12noon to 8pm, Friday, June 13 and 11am- 1pm on Saturday at Generations Funeral Home (3308 Ballard Lane, New Albany--off of Grantline Rd) Funeral Service will be at 1pm on Saturday at the Funeral Home.

March 25, 2007

6 months

My little bug, you're already half-a-year old! How did this happen so quickly? Over the past month you have started solid foods,
first cereal
found your piggies
lilli found her toes
and just continued to grow.

You're talking all the time now. Long and loud cooo's. And don't get me started on your brother, you are already trying to follow him around, and you get the biggest kick when he's around and pays attention to you.
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Dad keeps saying over and over again how much fun you are now that you're developing your own little personality. You are not a cuddly bug that's for sure. But oh you're still doing quite well on the whole sleeping thing.

Happy half year Lilli Bug!

Lilli 6 months

February 26, 2007

5 months!

Lilli-bug! You're almost a whole half a year old, I can't freaking believe it.

You're getting so big and gorgeous, with that lovely red hair, and your eyes, oh what a wonderful shade, just like your brothers. You sleep all night now and the milk is starting to not be able to hold you over. We tried a little bit of cereal on Saturdy, and pssh you've had better.

first cereal
It appears the only gene that you've gotten from me is the "nosey gene" you hold that noggin up so you can be in everyones business!

big eyes

At your last check up you weighed 11lb 11 oz! A far cry from the wee 5 lbs when you came to meet us.

I love the fact that you won't eat for your daddy as well as for me, and that you can always be comforted by the sound of my voice and the soothing touch of my hand.
blue eyes
I love you Lilli-bug!

January 23, 2007


Taken by my SIL Gwen...


December 27, 2006

3 months

Happy three months Lilli-Bug! Gosh this last month has been busy. You've started smiling and cooing and really starting to form your own little personality. We've had a few challenges when it comes to sleeping and have had to pull out the old ringer and place you in the aquarium swing so we all keep our sanity, but once you fall asleep, generally you're out for 5-6 hours at night. It really is great. Your gorgeous hair is still coming in red, and you're already up to 10lbs 2 oz! Officially doubling your size from when you were born.

It's amazing to see you respond to mine and daddies voices and watch you turn your head to find us. Conner loves you more every day, and still likes to comfort you however he can.

This last weekend we celebrated your first Christmas, and you took it like a champ. True you were pretty much up all night Christmas Eve, but you're so cute, what are you gonna do?

We went to church with Dad and Conner on Christmas Eve morning, and put you in a gigantic puffy dress that your great grandma bought for you. YOu slept through the whole service, just perfect.


December 08, 2006


Lilli has been coming to work with me about three days a week since I've been back and most of the time it's been going pretty well. Of course some days she's in rare form and decides she's going to be awake for no less then 22 hours a day and demand that I hold her while pumping, working, being on the phone and typing emails and contracts. Luckily she doesn't seem to bug anyone else but me, hooray for my own office.

That's why I decided to jump on the sling bandwagon. I ordered this gorgeous pink paisley sling from Hotslings yesterday and I can't wait for it to get here. I also must give props to Jenna for being such a supporter of baby-wearing and it rubbing off on me.

Lastly, here is a delightful picture of Lilli and I at work that my boss took. And althoug it doesn't really look like it in the picture, since Ms. Lilli graced us with her presence, I've lost 25 lbs and am down a pants size from when I got pregnant with her back in February. Woot!

Lilli and I at work

November 30, 2006

Lilli had her 2 month check up this week, and she's already up to 9 lbs and 21 inches long! She's in the 5th percentile for height and weight and the 10th for her head size. HAH!

She got more immunizations and the new wonderful WONDERFUL immunization against the awful rotavirus.

I was able to get her first small smile out of her yesterday by playing peek-a-boo. She's even prettier when she smiles!

Lilli 2 months

November 27, 2006

2 months

Happy 2 month birthday little Lilli-Bug! You have grown so much over the last month. Now you are awake for longer periods of time and love to look around. We just put the Christmas Tree up, and the lights are fantastic! We're going to have to start feeding you steak as you're already eating 6 oz a feeding. I'm getting scared I won't be able to keep up!

You have filled out all over and now have a cute little double chin, chubby cherub cheeks, rolly-polly squishy legs and fingers and toes I love to eat.

You recognize mine and daddies voices, and Conner adores you. He hates to hear you cry and does what he can to comfort you.

We had a rocky start but you are growing by leaps and bounds and I love you so much!


November 16, 2006

Festival of Tree and Lights

The Festival of Trees and Lights is a fund raiser for the NICU at Kosairs Hospital, where both Lilli and Conner were after they were born.

Not only will we be supporting an amazing cause but it will be the perfect opportunity for Christmas card pictures. There's a raffle for a BMW, $40,000.00, you can claim a wreath to design and sell.

There is also a place for you to "shop for the NICU" where you can purchase diapers, boppys or just make a donation.

I plan on going and no doubt coming home with a ridiculous amount of stuff.

November 13, 2006


For Christmas, my MIL had some pictures taken of Conner. I want to cry every time I look at them. My heart just absolutely swells with pride when I see him, and disbelief. I made that. I didn't screw it up, look how great he is!


November 12, 2006


At work, I sell ad space for a magazine. One of my potential advertisers is a company that works with historic and older homes. They have recently brought up the possibility of doing some contract work with them.

I'm incredibly excited about this opportunity. It's not that I hate working, I was just starting to get into doing the whole stay at home mom thing, which, honestly, I never thought I would ever really "want" that, you know? I loved it though. I loved doing the whole domestic housewifey schtick. The grocery shopping, the meal planning and cooking, keeping the house clean-wait OK I still never really mastered that but, ANYWAY.

Right, so it's not like I'll be not working anytime soon, I mean I like shoes way too much, but it's nice to dream right?

November 09, 2006


She's getting so big, she even has a little double-chin (the one thing she got from her mama).

Lilli november 5 004

November 08, 2006

Journey of the belly

journey of a belly

November 06, 2006

That's what I needed right there.

So yeah remember how I was all excited about wearing my "big girl clothes" to work from here on out. Real glad I did that seeing as how Lilli just puked all down the front of my shirt.


November 05, 2006


Shit. I have to go back to work tomorrow. Has it really been 6 weeks already? Is my last baby already a month and a half old? How is that possible?

Uggh. I don't know which is worse, her 6 weeks into NOT being a baby any more or having to go back to work.

The nice thing is my work is super casual so I can continue wearing my sweatpants and t-shirts, but I have made the decision to start wearing my "Professional clothes" to work. Why?

Because I'm bored with my sweatpants and t-shirts, and the NoBloShoeMo, has made me revisit all my shoes, and I forgot how amazingly wonderful my shoe collection is. I mean I'm not pulling a Carrie Bradshaw and wearing Minolo's or anything like that, but my shoes are still fun.

Anyway back to work. Of course, I'll be able to bring Lilli with me a few days a week, so I won't be going cold turkey. Plus, all my clients are planning their budgets for 2007, so hopefully I'll be signing clients like crazy.

Have a great Monday and week, and happy Day 5 of NaBloPoMo.

September 26, 2006


Hey guys, just a quick update as I'm home for a bit to get some sleep, spend time with Conner and pump.

Lilli was born on Monday after my water broke EARLY Monday morning. Labor and Delivery were easy and pretty quick and she came out pink and crying. Her lungs are just a little tiny so it was working her hard to breathe and the drs made the decision to move her to Kosair's. We've been there just over 24 hours and she's been improving every second.

It's very scary to see her on a ventilator but I know she's in the best place. Adam is in love with her and Conner just wants to bring her home and play with her.

I've got a few pics and I'll upload them as soon as I get a chance.

Prayers are appreciated!

Thanks all.

September 20, 2006

for me

Because a little nekid baby butt can cheer up anyone's shit day.


Healthy Parenting

I always said I'd never be one of those parents who bought their kids everything, it was a waste of money, I thought.

Ha. that flew right out the window the first time I saw how happy Conner gets. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I run out and buy him everything I see or he see's, it can something as big as a helicopter toy or inflatable spider for the front yard(I'll get to that in a minute) or as small as a new cup with spongebob on it, or even a piece of paper for him to put stickers on. Seriously, that kid grins and it's all over. This is also part of the reason Adam and I choose to work full-time, so we can buy him things that he wants and needs, and we can afford to go to the zoo with him, or take him to the fair to see the "moos", or go camping and rent a boat for him to "drive".

Of course, sometimes this backfires. Case-in-point, since the stores started putting out their Halloween crap while fireworks were still going off for 4th of July, I have been way ready to decorate for fall and Halloween. It's always been my favorite time of year, and with Conner it's even more enjoyable. At one store we visisted, they had a huge section devoted to the big blow up yard displays, and then he saw it. The big black and purple "pidey" with legs that moved and eyes that glowed. He was infatuated. We had to take several trips around the pidey every time we visted the store. I went back 2 weeks ago to buy it and it was gone. I don't know who was going to be more heartbroken, me or Conner. They manager said they "may" get more in, but he just didn't know. Happily they did get more in and I brought one home on Saturday. Conner danced around the box and immitated how the pidey moved when all blown up.

Adam asked Conner if he wanted to set it up in the living room. Then all hell broke loose. Conner flipped shit and did a total 180. My proud purchase and attempt to lure Conner over from the "dadside" had backfired, and I think I just scarred him emotionally now.

Once the thing was out of the box and blown up, we couldn't peel him off our laps. Adam and I each took our turn sitting next to the pidey and even fed it a dog. Nothing. Of course Adam was delighted. Conner also said his first sentence that day. Pidey back in box!!!


(more once you click on the pic)

September 14, 2006

Normal activities- isn't that how we got here in the first place?

I just had a really weird, really strong Deja vu moment with my moo goo gai pan for lunch. This baby is messing with my mind.

In other baby news, I got the all clear today from the doc to return to "normal activities" (Adam is psyched) he said that as long as I've made it this far he's happy. Lilli's heartbeat is all good and she's measuring right on track. No more checks until my next appt in 2 weeks. So it could be tomorrow, it could be 6 more weeks.

Let's hope for the latter as our nursery STILL is not done.

In other cute baby news Conner now requests "lubies" when he wants to hug and kiss. When I dropped him off at my moms house this morning he gave me extra lubies and gave "lilli" a "kisses" too. Christ on a cracker (thanks erika) this kid rules.

September 06, 2006

Watch the F out!

I've been fighting it for as along as I can, but the snark is starting to win out.

I have a huge list of people who have contributed to the current state of snark, but since this is a public thingie, I shant screw myself over by posting it here. (hooray for old school written journals).

While most of this is probably due to hormones from the baby, I'm pretty sure its also a good indicator that I need to get back with the Lexapro soon. Believe me, I don't like having to be right and superior all the time people, it get's old!

seal snark central

September 01, 2006

to pump or not to pump, that is the question

While I do tend to bitch about my job quite a bit (or about anything else to anyone else who will listen) I have been incredibly lucky when it comes to how they've treated me and my family, with either time off, or the ability to pump at work or whatever.

It's a small company so we're afforded some leniencey where at the same time, I could be totally screwed because we don't qualify for FMLA, so they give me 6 weeks off to work from home, and allowed me to bring Conner in a few days a week as well as pump at work. These opportunities have been worth more to me then any paycheck. I was able to breastfeed Conner for 4 months and so far have been able delay placing him in daycare up until recently, and even then it's only 3 days a week.

This article in the New York Times made me aware of just how lucky I am and just how backwards this damn country is with their priorities. Our sister to the north? They get a year off. Here 12 weeks, non-paid. IF you qualify for FMLA.

I urge anyone out there to visit Moms Rising and when you get the chance, let your elected officials know just how you feel about this matter and how important these opportunities are.